Nisargadatta Maharaj said freedom is the ability to do what you need to do.
What do you need to do? What’s your have-to?
Is it teaching? In what form?
Is it living in the woods as a hermit?
Is it getting married and raising a family?
Is it painting?
Whatever it is doesn’t matter.
You may not know what your have-to is. Then not knowing what it is, is it. Relax!